Staring at the ceiling of my car,
I got the news today.
It's really awkward crying in public
I'm aware that I've been avoiding using past tense
We would catch up once a year,
maybe less.
We were supposed to get a house together,
Miles won't change that tattoo
that says “friends forever.”
I'll wait for you to return my calls,
You swerved your car into the tree,
They say it must’ve been on purpose.
Distance makes me nervous,
Words in past tense make me anxious.
“this will pass” isn't helping.
“this will pass” isn't helping
In that house that we looked at,
You told me,
“This is growing up.
We don’t feel like we used to,
We don’t feel as much as we want to.”
I guess connections go out like lights we forgot to shelter,
life comes in,
a cold breeze through a window we didn’t close in the storm.
Depression sweeps in,
it’s blowing us out,
it’s making us forget who we are, who we were.
Depression sweeps in,
it’s blowing us out,
it’s making us forget who we are.
I wish I could have grabbed you by the neck,
taken you out of the snow and the rain,
to make sure you didn’t get washed away,
but life doesn’t work that way.
If I had the chance to see you again
The words "I miss you" would break
Would stutter and sputter, stumble and mumble,
They'd wrap themselves tight around my throat
They wouldn't say what I want them to say
They'd be gone as I said them, they'd remind me of you, they wouldn't stay
they wouldn't stay
they'd remind me of you, they wouldn't stay
How many long nights did we spend not being lonely.
Your absence is crushing my chest, there's a weight that never left.
You left a mark that isn't going away,
You're under my skin,
This is taking
You're a part of me,
You're apart from me,
This is taking a part of me
"Friends forever" has never made me anymore lonely
My phone is full of long distance calls to Jacksonville
Listening to the answering machine.
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